* I want to live a life that
appreciates the darkness as well as the light, the hurt as well as the
healing, the rejoicing & creativity as well as the mourning &
drought, the raptures of both anger & love, the dryness & the
rain, the humiliation & the elevation; I want to live vibrantly,
singing & when the end comes, go down singing just as joyously
through it all. I want to celebrate the most quintessential balance of
all things & the swaying between polarities that is the motion that
is life.
* I am determined to climb mountains, walk along &
swim in rivers, sing & dance while walking down the street while
people stare in fear & curiosity-- not so they'll stare, but to
express my overflowing happiness & wonderment at being able to still
be in this wonderful, incredible world (and invite them to join me,
whenever they are ready).
* I do not want to live a life that revolves around the computer or my phone anymore. I never have.
* I do not want to forgo or stifle myself & my life, needs, wants
& desires, altering them to other people's......unless it is out of
the purest, kindest intent that feeds an integral part of me or gives me
the utmost pleasure & growth to do so.
* I want to
experience & complete everything that I have dreamed & that
anyone has EVER told me was impossible, exceeding even my own highest
expectations of myself (which have always been the highest).
* I
no longer wish to apologize for myself. ANY part of me or the way I
choose to live my life, which is best for me. INSTEAD, I want to
celebrate & honor every part of me I hate & have spent time
trying to cut out of me & crush & hide to make those around me
feel comfortable, trying to take my SELF & force it into any &
every possible shape but my own.
* I want to EAT, DRINK & BE MERRY; sing loudly & dance, dance, my God, dance! (And anyone is welcome to join me).
* I want to fade into the whole world, to find humility; to give back
to it; to become part of it. I want to stand out in the world to help
shape it, to give back to it what I have to give, to find new roads, new
meanings & new love for everyone & everything, everywhere.
* I want to embrace the constant movement & change of everything in the world, including myself, that means we are ALIVE.
* I want to turn 60 & still be climbing trees, eating ice cream,
drinking sweet things, laughing & enjoying my friends, telling
elaborate, outlandish stories, reading books, going for long walks,
being surprised by tiny things growing & the way music makes me feel
& the color of the sky, staring at the stars, swinging high on
swings, singing, dancing & offering my hand to anyone who needs
friendship, council, listening or holding, when they do & feeling
more myself & better for it-- including myself. As I do now & as
I wish to do now.
* I want to eat slowly, think clearly,
listen carefully, love deeply, let go fully (when I am ready), laugh a
lot (especially at myself) & smile often. And forgive.
* I
want to practice the art of all things which bring me happiness. And
find mastery in them. I want to walk with my feet planted firmly on the
ground & breathe in the sky. I want to speak in Shakespeare &
poetry & foreign sounds, because this is the eloquence I am made of.
* Above all things, I want to live. I want to live in the world I live
in-- the one I was born into in my mind, my body & myself, because,
my God....it is beautiful here. And I have neglected it in the favor of
fear far too many times, for far too long.
